….here I am, still up. Mind you, some things are more important than sleep. I guess. Like Corner Gas. Uploading pix to FaceBook. Admiring the flowers my aunt gave me on Saturday. Looking around my home and thinking how very, very blessed I am.
At my Open House on Saturday, many people came. There were at least twenty-five to thirty people, & I was totally blessed by each and every one of them. God really has blessed me through the people in my life.
People came, & many were very happy for me for where I’m living now. The place is clean and finished, and there’s plenty of space & light, as well as lots of room for storage so that I don’t have to keep everything in boxes in my living room or bedroom. Having people over really pushed me to get it done & organised, & I’m going to keep it that way. I like it roomy and with everything in its place. It’s good to have a tidy home again!
When I was a child, I was a neat freak. Everything went away as soon as I was done with it, & I didn’t keep things messy. Then I went to work at Columbia Bible Camp one summer (I can’t remember what it’s called now), & things were messy after that. Then in college, I was a neat freak again. The only time I didn’t get a perfect, or near perfect mark, on my room checks was during my first year, when some of my hall mates trashed my room. Not literally – just messed things up. Drawers emptied & things strewn everywhere. My bed got unmade, & the place was a disaster area! The RA who checked my room that day knew that this was a rarity & knew what had happened. Still, I did have to have it re-checked, & I laughed about it. I knew the girls were just having fun, & nothing was harmed. They’d done worse to others, and this was a minor thing.
Since Bible college, mess, mess, MESS!
Oh, I’ve kept things clean, but how could anyone tell when nothing could really be seen properly? My parents’d visit me & always make comments about the mess, but I’ve often been at my wits end to know where things should go or where to store stuff. Just no space! Now, however, I can shove things in the laundry room, & use my pantry & linen cupboard, as well as have some boxes in my bedroom closet, & they’re out of the way & out of mind. I have easy access to these things when I need them, but they’re not cluttering up my space. That, my friends, is a very, very, VERY good thing! Something I should NOT take for granted.
Yeah, yeah. I’ll get to bed. Soon, probably. I just feel like babbling & writing right now, & have felt like it since sometime yesterday. What was I doing yesterday that I didn’t? I don’t remember. All I know right now is that my mind’s wandering off in different directions.
I’m thinking of my dear friend Leah, who’s really struggling right now. My prayers are with her, & I wish I could give her a huge hug & take all her pain away, but that doesn’t work. It almost always helps to know that others are there, but she’s lost deep in her pain right now, & my heart aches for her. God, comfort her & strengthen her & help her now, I pray! Even though she’s not trusting in You. Please use this to lead her to YOU!
I’m thinking of work & wondering where it’s going. My boss has such negativity so often that it gets discouraging if I let it. However, I’m determined now, after reading yesterday’s My Utmost For His Highest, updated version, entry. Actually, it was the day before’s that’s still running around in my head, but yesterday’s followed very well with Saturday’s. I’ll write more on this another time, but “the ocean has a shore” has stuck with me, & it’s become my new watchphrase, (coined by me, I guess) a reminder of a new determination and commitment. OK, to continue what I had begun ~ I’m determined now to NOT take life or people too seriously. Only God. I think far too much, and I take too much to heart or take many things with too much sensitivity, and, while I am a deep, deep person by nature, I need to have more shallow moments, moments of just fun and pure bliss and enjoyment. No, I’m not going to become all frivolous or giddy or silly or ridiculous all the time and forsake all that needs to be taken seriously, etc.. I’m just not going to make anything except God my focus. I’m going to focus on God and make the most out of life – make the most out of every moment to worship Him, to serve Him, to love Him. To just be HIS!
God created us to take enjoyment from life, and I’m determined to do that.
“The ocean has a shore.”
No matter how deep a person is, she needs to come up for air and sink her feet in the cool sand on the beach. Enjoy the sun. Watch the birds. Breathe in the wonderful salt air and forget about the deeps, where the pressure is strong and where things can bear down on her far too much. Yes, we need to be deep at times and to face the pressure and those things which way us down, but the beach is there for release and for relaxation. Enjoy it and relish your time out of the deep. “The ocean has a shore.”
*Please note: I’ll write more about “The ocean has a shore” another time, including quotes so that you can see the place from where this came.
I’m thinking about work, yes, & wondering where it’s going. How much longer will I be there, God, I’ve prayed many times. I hope I’m not there another year. I’ve reached my first anniversary right about now, and I don’t want to stay much longer. All with whom I started are gone ~ with the exception of my boss ~ and things have changed in many ways. I do have great co-workers, and I am very thankful to be working with Allyssa. However, none of us working there plan on making this our life’s work. I sense God is leading me elsewhere, but I’ve sensed that since I started. I never expected to be here now, a year later. Just goes to show that I shouldn’t take these sort of hunches too seriously! Besides, I shouldn’t be ruling my life by my emotions. Quite often they’ve proven correct & I have been able to rely on them many times ~ God’s used them a lot in my life, I guess because I do tend to go by them ~ but they’re not to be my guide, & they’re not to rule me.
Man, I really should get to bed! I think I will now. I feel as if I have so much more to say, but, really, it can wait, can’t it? Yes, it can, & I will wait. I just feel as if I’ve left things unfinished, but sometimes that happens. Anyway, g’night for now, & blessings to any who read this!
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